Hello everyone?! Man, it sure has been awhile since I've posted anything here on the blog. I guess it's because I've been counting on others, or 'things' to happen. I'm not going to put the blame on everybody, but let's just say that they've said or made certainty that moves were going to happen, and they just didn't. I'll admit, I was part of the blame, but I think the majority of it was, they said they'd keep me in the loop, and they didn't.
At this point, the dreams that I had of making a difference in my community, doing things for the environment are completely different from how they do things. But it didn't mean I wasn't up for trying to understand how they do things; their ideas and their methods. They just didn't want to hear any of mine. So, I walked away from it. For now.
In the near future, I would like to speak on what I'd do to continue what my dreams and visons are for the community. I've already written it down in my planner for the upcoming day when I'm going to be sharing it with all of you. Please sign up for my newsletter so that you will all be informed.
When I say "I need a re-up", I mean that. It almost feels like I need a cleanse of some sort. I'm just unsure of where to start. I'm in Los Angles, California at the moment, and I wonder how it would be if I tried harder at things. For the past couple of months, I've felt that I've been half-assing stuff.
At the moment, I'm reuploading Why Run?! episodes to Spotify going all the way back from mid-January to now. Even though I'm happy that I have the time to catch up while being here in California; Rob & I are both relaxing and spending time in between uploads. The thing that can suck is that I am constantly being reminded of how much I need to be(slash) should be doing.
I'm the type pf person where I need to have goals that are going to not just benefiting others, but benefiting me too. I need to feel like I'm making a difference. When I'm back in Arizona, this type of work (writing a blog, uploading videos to Spotify), still makes me feel unaccomplished. No matter how many posts, no matter how descriptive, no matter how much I choose and edit pictures to go along with what the topic (slash) blog is about, I still feel like I've done nothing once I publish them. When I feel that, I feel no joy.
I have loads of things to re-up. And I hate the fact that I have to take things one task at a time and focus on the one thing, the very things that bring me joy. Stay on things that move me. And most of all, keep on the things that fulfill me to the max. You too?! Well then. Let's go!
<3 Audie