March 2023 Tier Rewards + Applying For Shows

Good early morning everyone! The time right now is 1:40 am in the morning, and I'm sitting here at my desk trying to figure out what I need to get done and what I need to share with you all. First thing is, I am very excited that I have created the new cellphone background for memberships for the month of March 2023. The only thing I need to create is a GIF that would be a match with the March cellphone background. It's honestly a bit challenging but, I am determined. If you're wondering what GIF's I'm making and what for; it is just something fun you can add to your own videos or photo's (smiles). You can support me and receive cellphone background and GIF's here.

Also, I am having a hard time getting some marks down in my sketch book for March's postcard/greeting card design. I wanted to post a poll on IG (Instagram) on which design you all would like for the March 2023 tier rewards. Another thing I wanted to do was lay out some paint swatches in which colors you'd like to see be done for the March tier rewards. Not only would I use those colors in the tier rewards but, also in other canvas works and furniture works. I should probably get those together right now after I finish posting this (laughs).

There's quite a bit to do for the all the March tiers. And because of that, there is going to be a bit of a delay in getting all the items made and shipped out to you all. So, thank you all in advance for your patience. Also, I have to take proper pictures to be sent to one of the biggest Native American art shows in the Southwest. I am trying to get into this show; and let me say that I seriously doubt I'll make it into this one. One, I have no proper photo's to submit (I never know the types of resolutions they are looking for. They always seem to change them every time). And second, they want tax information from me and I can't get a hold of anyone to help me from the New Mexico office). So at the moment, it is bit stressful.

But I do have good news for IF I don't make it, and/or if don't get accepted; there is another art show I can attend to during that same weekend, that I could apply to as well. I'm not going to give up hope on that. And here's a little promo (smiles). If you would like to help with getting me to attend any one of these shows, you can show your support here. Either way, I'd like to get my works to any one of these places. I do find New Mexico to be the best place that fully embraces my art. So having them to be displayed there is always an amazing experience every time.

We still have some time since these shows are in the month of August 2023, but one of the deadlines are tomorrow. So I need to hustle. Wish me luck, and thank you. So that's the update. Thank you always for stopping by and reading this entry. Take a look at my shop and see what works I've been recently working on, and I will keep you all posted again right here on either my blog, or in my newsletter. Thank you all again. Have a wonderful night everyone. ♥Audie

Making The Hopi Cricket

Thank you and welcome to AudreyalKoinva.com. After a long fight of retrieving my entire website back, I would like to share the very first painting of the year 2023. And that is of The Hopi Cricket Painting. The mediums that were used in this painting are acrylic paints and oil pastels. This painting was done on a 24 x 36 scale canvas. The background is painted black, with pink twinkling stars. The square boxes that are glowing represent portals in which medicine men and women can either: foresee the future, see illnesses in people, dispose of illnesses, or receive strength/healing powers and energy. The four vertical lines that you see in oil pastel represent the four seasons, the four directions, the four continents, and the four ethnicities. The long white lines that looks like a cross at the end, that is actually the old style that we Hopi’s painted the lightning bolt. In this painting, The Cricket represents Alertness and Focus, which I believe we are all trying to harness in this world. The design within The Cricket is of a symbol of Lightning, which represents Strength.

As I was doing this painting, I was reminded of a cricket on the reservation whom I named Naomi from the mother and daughter country duet. I happened to be listening to one of their songs named “I know where I'm going”. So I had a lot of happy thoughts while painting this painting; like missing how long the days were because I seem to get a lot of things done. If you didn't know, Hopi land is considered to be The Center of The Universe.

There is a lot of energy there. Even though I do feel at times that life does indeed stand still in my village. Strangely enough, when you are living there you don't worry so much about things that you would normally worry about in the city. I’m unsure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Only because when it does happen, you are not using your thoughts enough like you probably should be. And to help that, another thing that I miss doing is sitting at my kitchen table shuffling and playing solitaire, working on a jigsaw puzzle, doing word searches, working on my weekly agenda, and writing. I did these things to keep my mind thinking, so that my mind don’t stand all that still. And now, all I wish is for my brain to slow the heck down (laughs).

Doing this painting has certainly given me that alertness and focus that I was looking for. And I hope you all enjoy gazing upon her; knowing of her importance, and take what The Cricket represents and insert it into your lives. Thank you all so much for reading this post.

♥Audie

The Hopi Cricket Canvas Painting 24" x 36"

Back Happy

Only one getting blood work.

5 hrs. in, still waiting.

Was feeling down.

Next day. Walmart deliveries.

Along with Uber Eats,

This delivery was a nightmare.

(sigh) So... this was the beginning to midweek for me, guys. I was having pain once again. I'm not going to get into too much as to why I was in the hospital; but if you are new here to my site, I do have stomach issues and have been having them for almost two years. I ended up taking myself to the E.R. because I knew that if I hadn't, I would have been staying up all night wondering either; what the matter was, OR I would have been kicking myself that should've went to the hospital. So, I went.

Everything is fine now. I got checked out; which included the doctor looking up my skirt... if you know what I'm saying. And honestly, I cried afterward. I was so scared. And it's not that I've never had that done before but, I've been so uncomfortable for a long time. Now, I know not everyone has been experiencing the same pains or ill's that I've had, of what I'm currently going through but, I suppose I was crying because, things are changing.

I'd like to be like everyone else who embraces changes. And I feel that I have in some ways embraced the changes that I have been going through because I had to. When it came to bad things happening in my life, I always felt they were lessons. And when you're being told that when you have bad things happening to you in your life, you're supposed to take them as Life Lessons. So, I've done that. In my six year relationship with my ex, the more that changes were happening alongside a bad negative person, it started to feel more like I had no choice but to deal with it.

I embraced those fucked up changes but, they really weren't changes. Those changes were getting worse and worse, and there I was just embracing them. No positive changes were happening. And towards the end, I felt like that's what he wanted. That was how he worked it. And now that I'm out of that relationship, my health is far worse from how it was six years ago when I met him. I am going to be discussing this relationship in a future ExMeOut Podcast. But what I'm getting at is, being alone in the hospital room made me think.

While I was putting my clothes back on in a ice cold room, tears were falling out of my face. Slowly putting my clothes back on in shame. I felt numb, but I could feel everything at the same time. At that point, I was wondering what the hell I all went through. Don't you ever have moments like that?! Where, you actually stop and realize that you were actually numb when you went through all the fucked up shit the entire time. Yeah, I was having one of those moments; that's why I was crying. Where was I during those times when I was supposed to be feeling everything?! Was I dead inside.

(sniffling) Yeah... I'm crying right now as I wrote that. I called My Mom into the office. And in trailing after her was My Dad as soon as he heard me wailing. I cried into My Mom's blouse. "I wish I was my baby picture." She too began to cry. She knew what I meant. I've told both My Parents before that I wish I was back happy like how I used to be in my baby pictures. In every baby picture of me, I was always smiling. Those were the times I was my most happiest. I want to be back happy again.

I'm laughing at this picture of me because, I snagged it from my fb page, and I captioned it "Alien Baby." (laughing) Yeah, pretty much. But I remember telling people that listen to my podcast to take a look at their baby pictures. I told everyone that they should strive to be that. I told everyone to look at their baby pictures and see that-that was a time in their lives that they were purely their happiest. Now, if you look at your baby pictures and you were always crying or mad looking in your baby photo's, I don't know what to tell ya (laughing). But I like looking at my baby photo's because, I did not have one ounce of worry or pain in my little body. Man, things sure change.

In time, I will share more of these thoughts. And mind you, they're just thoughts. They really don't mean a damn thing because, people live their own hell's, pains, ill's, and worry. Not to mention, they have no time to read or listen to yours. We are only amongst many. We are only numbers of passer-byers. And that's okay for me. We never know who runs across our pages and our socials. We search and pay attention to who we can align with. And I'm okay with being missed. The only sad thing about that is; they might just be missing a lesson that they may need the most.

I luv u all. Peace. ♥Audie